Feeling like I am loved by God

This picture shows Shasta and Franchesco taking turns chewing up a "birdie bagel" toy. It's a nontoxic cardboard thing for birds to play with and chew. Without this sort of chew toy a parrot will eat the household furniture.

Today was both frustrating and blessed, mostly blessed.
I couldn't get my brain or body moving until evening. It was almost like being paralyzed and it isn't fun.

The good news it that when I finally did get up I was blessed with many phone calls from friends wanting to know how my car negotiations went. I had no idea my friends were so emotionally invested in my transportation needs! Honestly made me feel cared for. Plus I was able to share the story of how God is providing the next vehicle for me. It IS a good story!!

Then another friend invited me to visit her in Tennessee at some point, maybe during a holiday. The holidays are difficult for single adults because we don't seem to fit in anywhere. With my parents both deceased I often flounder around Thanksgiving and Christmas and feel really low. If I have a plan and a place set up in advance then I don't have these anxieties. Now I look forward to the holiday season already since I have a wonderful invitation. Last year wasn't bad either because I was looking forward to seeing my sister and her kids in NYC.

It's easy to feel that God might not love me as much as others because He seems to provide better for them than for me. The truth, however, is that God just provides Differently for us all. "Equal", "Fair", "even"....these ideas are a myth and only cause broken relationships. I am happiest when I look to the face of God directly without comparisons.

This evening I felt overwhelmingly loved. All the calls and prayers of friends gave me MORE than my fair share of love. A new reliable vehicle to use is amazing provision from God. I also have Hope (that's a good word!) that I can unscramble the clutter of my life.

I am grateful for my friends. I am very much loved.
I am grateful for God's provision, even if I don't see it until the last moment.
I am grateful for answered prayers.
I am grateful for a trip to look forward to and plan.
I am grateful I had food in my freezer for dinner.
I am grateful Zoey bird was sweet today and didn't bite me.
(she is a good bird, she was just in a bad temper the other day)
I am grateful for my parking space at home.

GratefulJoy