Wipe Out...

Today's photo shows two female Plum Head Parakeets and a male Cockatiel having a shower in my bathroom. Waldo has since gone to live with neighbors, since I was allergic to him, and the two Plum Heads, Jelly and Baby Girl, are still here with me. I hear my birds mention Waldo nearly every day still.

The last couple of days I have been wiped out.
I don't mean just tired....I mean run-over, deflated, brain-dead, hard to breath because the gravity is too heavy sort of tired. Very frustrating, very frustrating indeed.

It really isn't that much comfort when friends tell me not to feel badly about my lack of productivity because this is beyond my control. You see, I still need to live life. Life includes bills and meals and baths and deadlines and postage stamps and all the rest of it. It isn't going to happen FOR me, I need to get my own stuff done. On days such as yesterday and today I neither bathed nor brushed my teeth.
Gross!!!!

Last night A bright ray of sunshine showed up at my door in the evening with tacos. An unexpected visit from my Joyful friend, and not a moment too soon. My house was too messy to find chairs and a table, so we picniced (had a picnic) on my bed. Afterward we played with Zoey bird a bit. We smiled and chatted. It was a gift to me from God.

Today didn't hold such a gift and I still need to make something to eat for the potluck thing tomorrow. And it would be good for everyone if I showered too.
I need God above to help me down here. I admit that I am powerless and need a "greater power" to fix this life of mine. Actually I've been saying that for a long while...so, where is God? I know He is with me but I don't see all that I need around me or in me (energy, clarity, stuff like that).

I was thinking about Joy as I lay in bed this afternoon. How do I get to joy when I am having a really terrible, very bad, no-good day?

I will be grateful right now, even if today was a wipe-out and tomorrow is hanging by a thread.

I am grateful for the surprise visit from my Joyful friend.
I am grateful Treasure has two eggs in the nest box.
I am a little sad that Picasso and Missie's eggs are all duds...
but, I love these two birds just the same and I am grateful to have them.
I am grateful I had grapes in my fridge today.
I am grateful I had crackers and cheese to eat tonight.
I am grateful I somehow manage to feed and water my birds no matter how awful I feel.

Hey, you two fans out there, if you think of me, would you please say a prayer that I perk up? I need some supernatural intervention to get this life rolling again.

GratefulJoy